One of the hardest things in life, one of them, is to find out that what you thought was you and was all of that aspect of you is only the tip of the iceberg. To find out that you don’t know what you don’t know about yourself when you thought you did is mindboggling and frustrating and sometimes frightening. But eventually it is a necessary step in our becoming.
Now, some people will say they are already there because they have an open mind, realize they are on a transformational journey, and are open to what the world is unfolding for them. But that’s knowing that you don’t know and there’s the opportunity to co-operate and coparticipate with the unfolding process even if it’s just keeping oneself afloat as things go along. Knowing that you don’t know allows you to keep intact who you know yourself to be and to be involved in dissolving the edges, challenging the preconceived notions, and stretching to find where the new boundaries might be. There is a balance to the revelation and a means of fluidly moving between who you were and who you’re becoming. It can be hard to maintain that balance and sometimes its a headlong plunge into the unknown or the known but resisted, but at least there is awareness of the process.
Where it is truly hard is when we believe we know who we are, how we do things, what is fact and what is fiction, what our limits are and what we are capable of, and then find that we were wrong on all counts. Knowing that we have the ability to do something and feeling competent in it, then finding that what we know and can do is the merest beginning of what is possible. Knowing that our nature is this and then being forced into a situation where we discover it is much, much more. Declaring “I know!” and then finding out that you have no idea. Realizing that we don’t know what we don’t know can be key to our progressing past a stuck spot, open vistas we have striven for over decades, allow us to expand in ways we only dreamed of.
What what about yourself do you think you know?
